Guilt is a Silent Killer

It's true. Guilt can kill you silently. I read the article called "Guilt Trip" from Mr. Mullins' suggestions for last week's blog.  And I definitely agree with the article.  Although it isn't exactly on the "A-List" of emotions, guilt can be very overpowering at times.

Let me give you an example.  My grandparents (my dad's parents) live with us right now, and I'm well aware of the fact that they are talkers. They sure do enjoy a good conversation.  But I am a senior in high school and I have so much work to do (never mind the fact that I do everything in my power to avoid my work...).  When they try to strike up a conversation with me I stealthily look down like I'm doing something important while smiling and giving them one word answers.  I know deep down, way way deep down, that it's wrong. And when they walk away with that sad look on their faces I wish that I had just taken ten minutes and let them have my attention. This is what guilt can do. I feel so guilty that apparently I feel the need to blog about it!

Anyway, that's what guilt can do, to me anyway. But what does guilt have to do with English? Believe it or not, I think guilt may play a minute role in Beloved.  Beloved (as in the ghost/character) spends time with Sethe and Denver.  Specifically at the beginning of the novel, Denver and Sethe command different parts of Beloved's attention, because Sethe sees her as a someone she can vent to while Denver sees her as a companion/sister whether she knows that it's her sister.  Although we are never really told how Beloved actually feels about all of this, I can imagine that she would feel guilty about it.

Not to make a joke out of something serious, but remember how I said that guilt is a silent killer? Well if my theory is correct, and Beloved really did feel guilty, she's dead now, so....that's up to your imagination. 

By the way, the whole grandparent thing was a complete joke. I'm not that kind of granddaughter or person. Should I feel guilty that I lied to you?